What am I look for?

This has been in my head for days now, I can't exactly find a reason why.

I think somewhere in between the realm of reason and insanity, I am tricking myself with a well known PUA technique. I made the mistake when I started planning that day, the scene kept replaying in my head and unconsciously I felt like we have been through a lot. Even though I just barely know her.

So now I am hopelessly attached to some one whom I don't really know much about. But one thing I know for certain; I need to be very careful about relationships. She clearly has not moved on from her ex even though it's four years ago.

I don't get it, I really don't see much quality in her from a logical point of view. She is not my usual type; she has a tattoo on her arm, she is loquacious, and she seems like the kind of girl who would go clubbing even though there is a test next day. So why am I so interested in her? Is it because the simple possibility that she seemed interested in me as well? I know I am just fooling myself, no sane girl would cry about her ex the night before her Valentine date. She is clearly not dating material, the best solution is to just keep her as a friend.

So now that we are talking about standards, what some are my standards for my ideal date. Well, even after all those years of loneliness, I still have quite a high bar for girls. Which isn't exactly a good thing, consider the school I am going to is 70% guys.

What I am looking for in a girl...I always thought I would meet her while playing music, and she would just go on and on about music. She would be sophisticated but in also weird; like maybe she would have balancing issues or really afraid of the dark. She should have an open mind about things, and fairly independent. She needs to be sensitive and romantic, but also sarcastic when the situation calls for it. She would remember important dates like Birthday days and anniversary and be extremely good at giving gifts. She would walk beside me when I am collecting my thoughts on a long walk. She would do crazy things with me when I ask her, such as driving 30 miles to watch the sky...

Isn't that a crazy list? I wonder if this world has some one crazy enough to have me.